In any given day, my mind is, lost between thought. Thinking and thinking, whether or not I did my homework. Or if I locked my car door before work or school. Or how much money I got left in the bank.
Am I paranoid? Or does everyone think the same? I don't know. I am not a psychologist, but what I do know is that I got no short term memory. Or got little recollection what I did 10 minutes ago if it wasn't interesting.
I blame it all on the military. Whether it was touching harmful chemicals without protection. Breathing in heavy metals that burnt. Or the heavy drinking we did on any given day or weekend. Or was it the 150 degree weather I had to endure while in Iraq, baking my brain?
I will sweat about every little thing in life. Did, I just finish my homework? Did I read the right chapter? As I frantically check, and recheck just to make shure, I read the d2l page correctly , and write it down on piece of paper.
All in all, in any given day, my mind is lost, found, and lost again. As I go from class to class, I wonder what the next teacher is going to assign for homework. Hoping it would be a simple lecture. But little homework never hurt anyone.
5 comments:
I think that everyone it worried about the same things as you are. I know I am because I am worried about being accepted as a transfer to UW-Oshkosh and I worry all the time about if I finished my homework plus if it was the right stuff. You went to Iraq that had to be scary. Everyone is always worried about other things to most of the time like are they going to be accepted by people in college because of who they are.
I would have to agree with kim on how everyone worrying about those things. I did and besides school I worry alot during the spring when we start cavling seen on our farm.
"A little homework never hurt anyone." Thanks for having my back, Jon (ha ha).
I worry all the time i always have to check stuff over and over again just to make sure i have it or that i did it. The military might have something to do with it im not quite sure but that would be a good reason.
I think just about anyone can relate to that, so don't feel bad. Somtimes when I leave my house I'm like OMG did I leave the door open, and a couple of times I auctually did, like not just unlocked, but wide open! LOL. This one time I even called my friend and told him to drive over to my house and double check for me. But yeah feeling like that is completley normal it's just that others experience it more to an extent than others. It's probably something that we develope over a certain time seeing all these things happen on the news and real life. Expecially with you being to Iraq, and to have moved all over the place. That's just what the media does is spreads fear.
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